Some of you have read my story about Sam before. Some of you are familiar with the NILMDTS organization, and some of you are lucky enough not to. It is something that is near and dear to my heart, but I hate that it is. NILMDTS is a network of photographers that donate their time to photograph babies that don't get to live in our world. They are usually born silent and into the hands of God. Sam is one such baby.
Sam was my first session as a new volunteer for the group. I was exhausted and recovering from a solid weekend of weddings and session work when I got the call from the hospital. They needed me to come and photograph a baby that was about to be born via c-section. I sighed, and said I would do it, because this was more important that sitting on the couch that morning. I cried the entire drive to the hospital and had to compose myself before entering the front doors. How do I enter this space and approach a family that has just lost a piece of themselves.
What followed the next 1-2 hours was nothing short of life changing. I was welcomed into a warm and sunny room full of the heaviest sadness that I've ever felt. It was an awful dichotomy. The warmth, however wasn't just from the sunshine filtering through the windows. The warmth emanated from the love that was pouring out of this family onto Sam, and his parents. I met many people that day, and I don't know all of their names, but I know their faces.
A few days later, I explained to my husband that I needed to attend the viewing for Sam's funeral. I entered a room completely full of images that I was able to capture and gift to Sam's family. They were everywhere. Every person in that room was able to meet Sam. I was afraid that Sam's mom wouldn't recognize me, or that I would be another painful reminder of that day, but I waited in line anyways to offer my condolences. As soon as she saw me, she got up from her chair; this mother who was still recovering from her c-section; got up and hugged me.
Fast forward to this week. Sam's mother and I have kept in touch over Facebook and I have followed her story. Another miscarriage, and now, a pregnancy with her Norah. I rejoiced when they announced this baby and her upcoming due date. I prayed for nothing to go wrong. I worried about her heart, can she handle this?
Tomorrow, I make the drive to Indiana to be there, and document the entirety of Norah's entry into the outside world. I will be taking photos along my journey so you can follow along and rejoice with me when she is here. I don't think anyone is ready for what Wednesday will bring, but I can not wait. I can't wait to see another beautiful baby in Abby's arms. I can't wait to see Ted holding his tiny baby girl. I hope the sun shines on them and Sam smiles down on his sister. I can't wait to hear her scream and cry, although I do not think that she will be without snuggling arms for a moment. Sam is still an integral part of this family's life, and he always will be. Norah is adding to and growing their love, and putting weight in their arms, and crumbs in their car. She will make messes in her crib and spit up on all of Ted's shirts just before he walks out the door to work. She will leave toys all over the floor and frustrate her mom beyond belief. She will talk back and give her parent's attitude. She will hold her daddy's arm when he walks her down the aisle someday. Norah will fill their hearts and lives to the bursting point. Norah, you are more loved than you know by more people than you will ever have time to meet. I will see you soon!
Tuesday, December 19, 2017
I met these two a few months before their big day to explore the area and venue and get familiar with the space. Upon walking into the area I could see why they chose it for their most special day. This venue offers a little bit of an escape from the city life surrounding it. Overgrown ivy walls, curtains draped over windows all around, lights strung throughout the trees. This place came to life for Spencer and Desiree to say their 'I Do's' and was one of the most magical spaces I've ever photographed in. I wish these two all of the happiness in the world. Your love is infectious and your wedding was full of happiness and light!!
Thursday, April 27, 2017
These two are so much like me....they are constantly driving everywhere! When you live in Alabama and have family in Georgia and Kentucky, driving 5+ hours becomes a monthly event! I was thrilled to meet these two before their Wedding Day when they offered to meet with me in Georgia. We found some amazing historic buildings and explored the property while talking about their upcoming wedding in Louisville. I can't wait to see them tie the knot!!
Monday, December 19, 2016
Twenty Sixteen. It was a great year for my business. I was a full time full blown wedding photographer. I didn't second shoot as much as I had in the past because I was so busy with my own work. I formed relationships with amazing couples and followed along with others that began to expand their own families. We moved our own family to a different state and I was faced with re-doing my business from square one. I'm still faced with it but I'm excited for the new environment and people. I also was rocked by a hard drive failure that cost me more than words can say both personally and through my business. I want to post this as a year end wrap up. It was such a great year for so many reasons, and I don't want the negative to overshadow everything good that DID happen. I witnessed so many vows being said, and so many lives grow and change. I stood by while parents said goodbye to their babies, and I watched babies become toddlers. This, is my 2016. Thank you for trusting me and working with me. Thank you for being a client to a small business owner. Thank you for valuing real photography.